Since I called my owne waies to the benefit I have found by examination rememberance I have learned \a/ more charitable opinion of others. knowing that I was in times past unwise. disobedient. deceived. hatefull and etc \[Titus?] 3.13/ also this worke so wholy tooke up my delight with the thought of it. that there vanished those idle vaine and proud yet \since/ too often through my carlessnes I have had idle frivolous thoughts when I have bine about holy businesses tho not with the affection (or prid as before thoughts of selfe conceite. which afore so possest me tho I laboured a gainst them. that I thought it almost unpossible so wholy to leave them as I now have done but thou hast heard my praier for perceiving the danger of them I trusted in thee Lord which art of all power to helpe. therefore now the more praise I owe unto thee. Both for Enriching my Fancy. and clarifieing my thoughts. also thy word never seemed so sweet to me as now. and those places which before I did not esteeme of because I understood them not have bine now most pleasent to mee. Yet to often I have not reveranced thy word as I should have done because of my owne ignorance. as also I have found my owne pride and high mindednes to hinder me in good. and in conceiving some mens persons not able to utter that. which some others can. and to despise plannes because I have found the golden chaine of Eloquence to be more atractive to draw. yet have I found much good in those persons. which I have heard but meanly esteemed of. as I have found that Doctren or profitable to mewholsome to me which hath not bene florished with the flowers /words\ of Rhetorick for what good doth all human witt or art aford us (tho I desire to account them as thy gifts) in respect of in obedience to thee lord I desire to embrace him of whom thou hast made us rich [psa 119] it was a good [speach] of him that said [by vertue] [illeg. and have all] for the meeke wilt thou [guide] in judgment and teach the humble thy way ps 2v 9 that one knowledg S paule the Apostle speaketh of when he said I esteemed to know nothing save Jesus Christ. and him crucified \I cor 2.2/ Therefore casting downe all [hie] imagination of mans wisdome. I desire to receive thy word with all meeknesse. \Jam \[4.21]/ 3.13/

Lord* thou hast dealt graciously with thy servant according to thy word. O teach me true understanding and knowledge for I have beleeved thy commandements \psal 119.7/ I praise thee for for somtimes I found the strength of faith and joy in thee yet to often I have troubled my selfe or have bin tempted especially of late. with thinking what futer sorrow and death might come upon me or my frinds with [too] much giveing heed to foolish things so that by this meanes I have found my soule [unapt] to conceive of the spirituall joy which thou requierest. yet often times through thy mercy these feares have caused me to lift up my hart to trust in thee. though I confesse my want of faith is cause of this which I beseech to forgive and strengthen for then I know all sh-albe well. also I beseech thee to forgive my foolishnesse or temting of thee. spareing me so longe and giveing me so large a time of Repentance and amendment O looke thou upon me and be still mercifull unto me as thou usest to doe unto those that love thy Name. for I have found it is good for me that I have bene afflicted that I might learne thy Statutes \psa 9.76/ for Lord though thy judgements be unsearchable yet thy mercie is infinit, even in thy corrections which my soule hath experiance of. for though thou correctest justly for Sinne. Yet those rods of punishment both take a way the evill of our corrupt nature. and make us farr better then before. yea I find thou hast altered the whole frame of my nature for the better as to bare things with the more patience. to seeke the more unto thee by prayer to meditate in thy word: to use the more vigilencie to wach over my selfe: to a void foolishnesse and curiossity in vaine things to bend both my owne waies and others to more godly edifying (yea I have found it the increase of /vertue\*) yet I have much merveiled at my bodily health coming of so weake and sickly a woman as my mother was. for I praise thee my God ever since I can remember I have not bine \very/ ill two daies together, but only somtimes some litle weaknes or infermity I have had (as sorenes of eyes and paine of my joynts) whereby I have feared blindnes or lamenes yet have they not broken foorth to any gre-at inconvenience unto me. but are as sim\p/tomes of my mortallity and warnings unto me to use the more temporance. and that I might the more pitty others. yea Lord how favourably hast thou dealt with me all my time in all my waies. and with /much\ lenity and thou hast caused me through the weaknes and sicknesses /or illnes\ of \waies/ others. to receive strength of healthy and vigorous yea lord thou hast [Nur]ssed me up with clemensy and much mercy in all my [wai][es] instructions. and when I called to mind the time that is past. it rejoyced mee to thinke thou hadest made me the servant of thy servants. and to suffer with them that suffer) when I might have enjoyed more worldly pleasure. yea Lord thou hast made me the and thou art my fathar and the guide of my youth. Jer 3.4.19 companion of them that love thee. and keepe thy commandements \psa 119/ also I never found thy mercy so sweete to me as in these troubles. and in the consideration of thy long forbareance /suffering\ of me also through thy goodnes in Blessing my indevers I have many times bine sattisfied and gained or \[even]/ found the increase of much sound joy. I will joy in thee Lord and rejoyce in my God. I will rejoyce in thy mercy. and my hart shalbe joyfull in thy salvation for thou hast bine my defence and refuge in my trouble.