consering my sins which I have commited I am ashamed to confesse to my Lord; having falen in the same sin: wherein before I found my selfe gilty, but Lord that hadest mercy on me that it may hereafter be farr from mee and \in/ my wrechednes thy mercy shall appeare. a lickorishnesse ⁴⁵ stole upon me to open my mothers cobord, she leting me have a nether roome of it to \my/ selfe, I longed to trie whether I could open it with my key, which when I had found the way of it I tooke fruite from thence, my mother had an observation that if she task us and wee were gilty we would blush. but it was not alwas so. I was past shame. my mother having charged me with it I flatly denied it. and so scaped both the shame of the fact and her anger, \also/ my mother let me keepe a closet to my selfe, wherein I kept pares to dish out for the table, my father injoining me that I should eate no pares⁴⁶ but they tempting me every time I saw them. I should take one, having som regard to my fathers command; thinking that if I offended not in the number I did well enough. but after I passed furder and tooke my \a/ part of many that was somwhat perish\e/d. so by this meanes I was satisfied of what I would: In these things I scaped without the offence of my parents, not knowing what I did in secret, but my consience hath often reproved me. for these and other \smal/ things. which if \I/ should openly mention perhaps some would laugh at me; yet Lord thou gavest me the feare of thee in these times, for I remember the Bookes which I had in my closet reading and pra\y/ing to thee in secret thinking my selfe safe in so dooing, hearin I praise \thee/ my God, for the good things I learnt in my testament \and for/ writing nots out of it, and for the good example I had of others. I mervel at my selfe that I should commit these errors calling \to mind/ the fear I had of thee in these times, but I thought the smalnes of my offences would bare me out, not considering that luke. 16.10they which are unjust in the lest are unjust also in much; as I take it a good while they contemne the small things shall fall by little and little Ecclus. [19].i after this, one would have had me sowrne (seeing me look ill) that I should eate no fruite, but my parents I thanke them. would not bind me so, for if they had I feare I should not have keept it. and yet if I had thought that these things would have so run in my mind. I suppose I should not have don them. \yet/ Lord I praise for reproving me in small things that I should not fall into greater for after this I carried a more upright mind, though I had the opertunity to the contrary, my father divers times seting me to keepe his mony, (when he hath bin out of the roome) when I had littel enough: also thou hast taught me to have a \more/ favourable opinion of others, (which have fallen in the like kind) because of thy mercy towards me; I growing somthing big my mother tooke a more favorable way with mee then before she had don. when she had her maid to hold \me/ while she gave me correction and though she was a weake women, yet being somthing moved with passion she did her sefe I suppose harm and me no good, though I conffes I did deserve her correction, and therefore it was due to me, and though my mother did well in so doeing, yet for this cause I beleeve she she did better afterward in moderating her selfe, for now \I/ having don amis,