for though she was clouded with afflictions. yet when they were any \whit/ past she was so much revived as though they had not bine: or rather because they were, forasmuch as in his Confes booke 8. Chap 3. S Austin saith the greatest joy is ushered in by the greatest painfullnesse ⁵⁰; yee and I find often written by her wherein she acknowledgeth the Lords aboundant mercie in inableing her so comfortabley to goe through her afflictions; so that in her I have found verefied that the Lord hast not made the heart of the righteous Sad, Ezek.13.22. my mother being witty and she \had/ also delighted in playing on the viole. which my uncle Lewen taught her, delighting in poettre. kept a Booke by her. in which she often read. I can onely recall these verses to mind in which she delighted; ⁵¹ at this time my mother +used to call+called her maides to acount what they remembered of the weekely sermons they h\e/ard; instructing likewise the most ignorant of them before they receved the holy communion;

I hearing some descorces of that place of Scripture. wherein Jobs Wife te\m/ted him. saying curse God and die. this word so ran in my mind; the Devill darting it into mee (as it were) divers times before I could at \the/ present resist him. of calling upon thee my God. that I I feared I had thought I had through my necligence by my too much yeelding. commited that foule sin of blaspheme against the holy Ghost: which should never be forgiven thus the devill would have driven me to despare. yet I had hope of the best; weepeing and \calling/ upon thee my God to resist him. who did thus often assault me. with this tentation which was still odious unto mee: and not onely in respect of my selfe but for thy sake. I to satisfie my mind herein and that I might have the more corrage in good (to whom the devill would have me to thinke that it is in vaine for me to follow good and if that I were damed.) asked Mr Buning the minister of our Parish. what the sinne against the holy ghost was. he answered mee that it was those who of purpose cursed God, \and/ continuing therein to the day of there death (as Julian the apostate did) now I was glad that I was so farr from it: though it did stil greve me that I was still \by times/ thus asaulted, knowing that it could not but be a great offence to yeeld in the lest maner unto it. at this time Mr \Dod/ seeing mee eate or applesfruit fasting: rebuked mee for it, as being very unholsome, ever since I have bin the more carefull to avoide the eateing of fruit at unseasonnable times though they temted mee never so much:

Now my mother had no long time of rest before her speech in part was taken from her. speaking like a Childe not being able to utter the full sound of words. yet continued she well and lightsome in her mind calling to us and making signes. too or three of us comming about her to know who should best 'understand' partially obscured. understand her under\stand/ her meaning. whom she often laughed at for our misinterpretations. yet this wee understood by her what she would have to eate. besides her desire to know what her outward maides did (turning her hand to know whether they spunne when there houshould busines was over,) to whom I usually was her messenger. and I suppose