mercyes, and want of reverent beleeving, that rejoyceing in Gods holy worde. also these she writt a gainst (which was afterwards), acussing her selfe, for reasoning with Satan against the light of Conscience, and her not comfortaly receving her frinds good counsell which they so religiously and kindly gave her, with her so much acussing her selfe, and not looking upon her strong temtations that perswayed her fralty to yeeld with her want of charity to her body; and not labering in her calling moreover \how/ she divers times shwed her uttermost affections. desiring that she might doe what she could for the Lord. being zealliously moved that she might suffer for his sake; desiring as the prophet David did, psalme the 139.23. trie me O God and know mine \heart/ and = and she againe afterwards desired the Lord to forgive her wherein soever she had sinned in these things for want of due consideration: also she desired in her nots or table Booke to make good use of all the Lords mercies and corrections to her writing thus to her selfe: ever set the Lords gifts to thee. and thy sinnes before thee consider \that/ wee are the Lords steurdes and must give acount how* wee dispose of that wee have;

this affliction of my mothers was a great griffe to my father, and the greater by reason (\that/ when he was \foorth/ about Country busines) some told him it was long of himselfe, for they said that he keept her in. and would not let her goe abroad; I suppose those that said it knoew her not; for she was unable to visit her frinds, having ingaged her selfe to see them. my father being very willing thereto; also some said that he was hard to her but not so but that one of a more sparing dissposition might have had enough. she was of a Noble free nature, and very Charitable to the poore. scarsly a day passed wherein she asked not how they did in the toune, or did sumthing for them; it doth rejoyce my hart farr more to thinke that revel. 14.13 gathered and left all her workes follow her: then if she had lefte all she had to my selfe. I neede no better testimony of my fathers kindnes to her then what I find by her owne writtings acknowledging it the lords great mercie in moving her husbands heart; that he had such care, and provided such meanes for her health; but was always carfull of her my mother complaning to Docter Williams of her memory. he told her she was like a woman that went [to] fech water in [a si] ue yet though [torn page] ould carre [w]ater she wash [torn page] er her sive: this witty saying somthing pleased her: (for he spared no cost for her)

Now my father had divers neighbours and frinds, that came to comfort my mother among whom was Sir John Pickering a worthy Gentleman, who as I take it comended Mr Dod a minister to my father: now my mother found some comfort in those with her being not altogether so ill as she was. (besides she was alwayes better somtimes then other:) \yet/ * I never pers\i/eved that she receved so much comfort by any as by Mr Dod; who hath a singuler gift in comforting afflicted consciences above any I know