Now my Sisters being ill againe. me thought was more griveous to me then afore. I thinking my selfe worse to beare it. after I hope of amendment Now she told she had truly strove. and said none knew her illnes so much as my selfe. whom she thought most pittied her. \and/ I suppose for her illnes which for her fits comming and goeing suddenly many times upon letle occation wee thought she might helpe partly. yet perdon my judging or sencering of her shewed it selfe \heretofore/ by the effects she might well have taken the prophet Davids words of lammentation. I have roared for the disquietnesse of my heart. I am powred out like water*. and my bones are put out of joynt \psa 38.8 the 22.14./ and I had heavines fearing her death.and much desiring she might live with me. although sometimes I thought it unpossible to nature. and uncharitable to wish her in still misery. also she confessed she was troubled conserning me yet she said she hoped God would comfort me. I Answered I hope he will, for I had a strong faith that thou wouldest not leave me comfortles. and \for/ me thought thou putest it into me that if thou tookest her from me. I might with more freenes and fullnes enjoy thine owne selfe. for seeing those whom I loved passed away. it did me yet good to thinke that I should be more wholly thine. I loved them because they were in some measure good. but much more should I love thee which art goodnes it selfe. it was passive in them. but naturall in thee. wee mind one thing now. and anon another. and as our thoughts be with thee is no variablenesse neither shadow of turning James 1.17 mutable still changing so our selves must nessecarily change but thou art the same and thy yeeres shall not faile \psa +102.27/ yet for a time thou withdrawest thy comfort that I might see my owne /fralty\ weaknes and not be proud. againe she told another time lieing by her. I hope Sister as you bine partaker of my for she said she was as a hollow trunk which also I heard by her misery so you shalbe of my joy. she continued ill 6. or 7. weekes after a more dull languishing maner of her vitall parts some times before this since her first fits she would speeke to me of what unspeakable ease and joy the soule might be in if it were delivered out of the body considering the ease she had in those swounding fits which ware resemblances of death and which I well remember by my selfe once when I had the wind collick. not having so many fits of being well and ill of a sudden her speech used to be taken from her as she had bine formerly. yet was she \as when/ able a litle to goe with leading and to sit up some part of the day till /about\ the houre her fit tooke her whereof she died, it being on the day which is kept in memorie of all Saints. she inquierith (as I take) a while afore when it should be for then she said should be read at Church (that which somtime afore she had painted to in her illnes when she could not speake) that chapter of the Reve where is said. And one of \the/ Elders spake saying unto me. what are these which are arayed in long white robes and so forwarde| yet my unwillingnes to thinke of her death made me still hope that she might live. and that this was one of her sownding fits. tho I still feared. and being loth to goe from her. I continued with her till there was no hope of her life yet brake I not foorth unto ones or twise joy she had tho she compared her selfe to that text which Mr Buning then preshed for thy sake have wee killed all the day long Rom. 8.30 weeping till an houre or two after. and some comfort it was to behold or take my last farwell of that beloved object which was deare unto me. and in whom death seemed Sweet. but after lenght of time increased sorrow. by a wound taken by having that sweet and deare custome of living with her thus for she seemed so well that I went to church and when I cam home I found death upon her she after a while swetly closing her eies as if she sleept. broken off. and after I wished my selfe of the nature of those who can suddenly crie out they soonner after finding more ease; my Brother to whom she was deare. and to whom she used to make her mind knowne made this Epitaph of her.